Freaking Out Starts in 3…2…1…

Written By: Jess - Mar• 23•14

New post on the new(ish) blog*! So, my first ever manuscript is almost complete. I get to go to a writing retreat this upcoming week put on by iwritenetowork which I’m pretty stoked for!

But today I got to attend Writing for Charity and received amazing feedback from author J. Scott Savage (if you haven’t read his books you should check them out!) and Joe Monti, the executive editor for Simon and Schuster’s newest fantasy imprint, Saga Press. I took with me my query and the first chapter of my novel. Scott Savage read the first six pages and Joe Monti looked at my query and the first page. I was pleasantly surprised at some of the comments and learned of some things I need to fix. Overall, it was a very positive experience. I’ve had different people look at it before, but it was great to have an editor and a very talented writer give me some input on it.

There’s only one little problem. For whatever strange, completely irrational reason I am absolutely freaking out and not in a good way. I couldn’t figure out why, and my poor, sweet husband got to listen and watch me get all mopey and sad for no apparent reason. After a couple of hours of going around in circles Jack pointed out what was probably making me all crazy: my book is almost done and it’s scaring the daylights out of me.

Since I realized that I’m going to finish it this month, I’ve been like this:


Basically, I’m getting all worried that my story is going to suck major and it will never see the light of day. I’ve entered the final stretch of it and I keep thinking about what’s happened in the plot. I’m second guessing myself and I haven’t even finished the thing yet! (Warped of me, I know.) I know other author writers have felt this way (or so I keep hearing) but my completely irrational mind keeps sending me into a panic. I have to keep telling myself that I’ve gotten great comments about what I’ve shown and that even if my novel can’t be published then it’s not the end of the world.

Still, I know it’s just a phase but I’m still all nervous and moody about my MS. *sigh* I never anticipated the crazy emotions.  Anyone else felt like this?


* Note: New blog. Again. This time it wasn’t on purpose. Because of a failed transaction (we forgot to update our credit card info – go us) I got to recreate this whole thing again. Yippie. It’s roughly the same. Sort of.

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  1. Brett says:

    well you know i love to read and im sure you have done a great job if the author was giving you praise. a lot of authors are publishing themselves think its smashswords that does it for them. but easy sell your first book for free then have the follow ups cost 2 or 3 dollors. I have found a lot of new authors that have great stories that posted them for free. any way. ya its me you twerp. love ya.

    • Jess says:

      Ah, that’s cool! I’ll have to check Smashwords out! 🙂 Yeah, I just have to keep reminding myself that. Btw, I’m thinking about reading more epic fantasy, so I’ll have to pick your brain for some good ones. 🙂

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